aikzz...feel so DOWN..dono y...y others ppl family so nice..so open...y mine NOT? i noe i olwez out out out...till midnite just home...but i dont want...i not veli like to out at nite...just..at home..dono can do wat..just listen to my family said tiz not good say tat not good...olwez heard argue..T.T i want geh life not like tat d..i wan they noe me more,noe my feeling..but not olwez "tou shu" to me who not good..haiz...y their mine cant b open? WHY? feel suffer...sometimes think wanna leave tiz house..if they not so many COMPLAINT, tatz must b so good...if they not think too much,tatz must b more good..everyday i dono should use wat to face them..i really dono..i scare of them..really scare..dono their mood when is good when is bad..haiz...saw my fren's family..mind so open geh..can talk laugh..just look like very good good fren...y i cant have? wat should i do? they olwez scare i not concerntrate on my study..olwez said me like to play onli...but....like tat make me feel suffer onli..y i cant go relax with my fren to talk "xin shi"? they olwez give me those "ya li" make me think to b treachery..just think tat they not the suitable person tat i can say wat i feel,wat i think with..my friend,my biaojie and mr.bread just the person tat i can talk with...they know me..they can feel me..they can give me advice by not scolding me..they can teach me wat should i do...if my Family....wat i say they must b think to negative 1st geh...haiz...wat family i have? the ppl most important to me never ever know wat i think..they cant let me feel safety to talk with...CANT..~~!!!! i wan a real family..!!! T.T

Mr.Potat0=傻佬

应该从哪里说起呢?
认识你...是我最大的福气...=)
你很好...我很喜欢你的体贴....=)
虽然刚在一起..可是对我来说你就是有说不尽的好..
傻佬..我真的喜欢你...
虽然现在不是100%...可是你懂为什么...
希望你会给我一点时间...=) 傻佬...=D
Jack..i will happy always without YOU...
LeiLei will now try 100% to 傻佬 but YOU, i will forget it...
forget my hurt,my dissapointed...
i trust 傻佬 will treat me good than YOU...
傻佬...加油to me o0...=)
sorrY o0 傻佬..
hope you dnt mind=)

ILY..IMY..

dissapear again?
haiz...where r YOU again..T.T
so miss YOU..

不能放松爱你..
can't release to loving YOU..

爱不爱我已经没关系..
lovE me or not that's doesn't matteR..

一点小伤而已..
just a little hurt only..

都怪我..
blame myself~!!

太不争气..
too selfishness..

我恨我爱你..~!!
i HATE i lovE YOU..~!!

我恨你总是对我说..
i HATE YOU always told me..

"我爱你.." "我想你"
i LOVE u..i MISS u..

好想好想你..
so so MISS YOU..

好喜欢好喜欢你..
so so LIKE YOU..

The First of FEB

一个月又过去了...今天是2月的第一天...=)
真的不懂..现在的我...
发现原来你的心,你的想法是多么的令我难以捉摸...
昨天...你竟然第一次对我发脾气...我吓到了~!!
你说有事要告诉我..我叫你现在说..你不要!!
说晚一点再讲..
真不明白有什么那么神秘...
反正你这种早已养成的神秘感..
我已经熟悉了..
到最后...你没打给我...
我还是什么都不知...不懂你...
都不懂是有什么惊天动地而且即将会令我伤心难过的事情要告诉我...
你该早说...
反正每次你打来,我都做好心理准备了...
伤透的心...早都习惯了...
不敢对你有太多的期望...
可是还会好想好想爱你的感觉...=(

hemm..Long time dnt write blog le..=) busy for my study..assignment..yamcha yamcha..driving car round here round thr..till no time write blog le..haha..=D
haiz..just now went to watch movie with fongni,kang,ahZhun n ahZhu..
so suprise that he will went to watch movie with us..^^
i went to fetch he..and ahZhun to0..when at car he suddenly said that he break with his gf to ahZhun..hmm...dono he izit wanted intent to talk in front of me..*mayb i think to0 much le* -.-"
after finish watched movie..kang,fongni n ahZhu went to play game at FunSquare..
me and ahZhun sit outside and talk talk..v talk many about ahZhu..haiz..
ahZhun told me that..i'm in his *heart* list now..haiz..
suddenly give me those problem again..dono want how..T.T
so confuse..i keep thinking keep thinking..
did i still love he? did i? how bout YOU?
haiz...want YOU to prove it to me..FAST~!!
if not..mayb..i'm going to do the craziest thing..*accept back ahZhu*
actually...i'm not going to act ahZhu as YOUr "dai ti ping"..
ahZhu is a good guy..he really good..the best bf that i ever met..
but..my heart not listen to me..keep thinking of YOU..
LAST...
want mention that YOU and ahZhu are different ppl..different world..
both of you got good and got bad..different..
not want ahZhu b YOUr "dai ti ping"
i got heart with he to0..but not as much as YOU..

31st Dec'09 went to FireflY countdown for a NEW year..=)
1st Jan'10..finish countdown..continue our clubbing time..haha..=D
12.05am YOUR call was coming..my biao jie imprudence wrong click and reject YOUR call...she told me!! i felt shocked..i quickly borrow my biao jie's bf phone ran out and called YOU...(*my phone no credit jor..T.T) YOU said YOU dont want i get hurted..so YOU dnt find me..do YOU know? YOU dnt find me..i get MORE HURT!!!
i cant accept YOU gave me the answer was like that..i cant!!! i really dont know what YOU want..if YOU dont love me..pLease!!! TELL ME..!!! i wont so hurt..
i CRY for..YOUR sudden called..
i CRY for..YOU said YOU miss me..(*not very trusted!!)
i CRY for..YOU still remember me in the NEW YEAR..
i CRY for..why YOU miss ME!!
i miss YOU..
i do really miss YOU much..
i do very LOVE YOU much..
why when i gonna to put YOU in my heart for not talking about YOU forever..
YOU will always suddenly appear in my LIFE again..!!
why?
why?
please...i do really hope that YOU will tell me YOU dont love me anymore..i dont want like a fool who always waiting for YOU everyday everytime everysecond and every 3years again and again..!!!

-MOODy-