aikzz...feel so DOWN..dono y...y others ppl family so nice..so open...y mine NOT? i noe i olwez out out out...till midnite just home...but i dont want...i not veli like to out at nite...just..at home..dono can do wat..just listen to my family said tiz not good say tat not good...olwez heard argue..T.T i want geh life not like tat d..i wan they noe me more,noe my feeling..but not olwez "tou shu" to me who not good..haiz...y their mine cant b open? WHY? feel suffer...sometimes think wanna leave tiz house..if they not so many COMPLAINT, tatz must b so good...if they not think too much,tatz must b more good..everyday i dono should use wat to face them..i really dono..i scare of them..really scare..dono their mood when is good when is bad..haiz...saw my fren's family..mind so open geh..can talk laugh..just look like very good good fren...y i cant have? wat should i do? they olwez scare i not concerntrate on my study..olwez said me like to play onli...but....like tat make me feel suffer onli..y i cant go relax with my fren to talk "xin shi"? they olwez give me those "ya li" make me think to b treachery..just think tat they not the suitable person tat i can say wat i feel,wat i think with..my friend,my biaojie and mr.bread just the person tat i can talk with...they know me..they can feel me..they can give me advice by not scolding me..they can teach me wat should i do...if my Family....wat i say they must b think to negative 1st geh...haiz...wat family i have? the ppl most important to me never ever know wat i think..they cant let me feel safety to talk with...CANT..~~!!!! i wan a real family..!!! T.T