hemm..Long time dnt write blog le..=) busy for my study..assignment..yamcha yamcha..driving car round here round thr..till no time write blog le..haha..=D
haiz..just now went to watch movie with fongni,kang,ahZhun n ahZhu..
so suprise that he will went to watch movie with us..^^
i went to fetch he..and ahZhun to0..when at car he suddenly said that he break with his gf to ahZhun..hmm...dono he izit wanted intent to talk in front of me..*mayb i think to0 much le* -.-"
after finish watched movie..kang,fongni n ahZhu went to play game at FunSquare..
me and ahZhun sit outside and talk talk..v talk many about ahZhu..haiz..
ahZhun told me that..i'm in his *heart* list now..haiz..
suddenly give me those problem again..dono want how..T.T
so confuse..i keep thinking keep thinking..
did i still love he? did i? how bout YOU?
haiz...want YOU to prove it to me..FAST~!!
if not..mayb..i'm going to do the craziest thing..*accept back ahZhu*
actually...i'm not going to act ahZhu as YOUr "dai ti ping"..
ahZhu is a good guy..he really good..the best bf that i ever met..
but..my heart not listen to me..keep thinking of YOU..
LAST...
want mention that YOU and ahZhu are different ppl..different world..
both of you got good and got bad..different..
not want ahZhu b YOUr "dai ti ping"
i got heart with he to0..but not as much as YOU..

31st Dec'09 went to FireflY countdown for a NEW year..=)
1st Jan'10..finish countdown..continue our clubbing time..haha..=D
12.05am YOUR call was coming..my biao jie imprudence wrong click and reject YOUR call...she told me!! i felt shocked..i quickly borrow my biao jie's bf phone ran out and called YOU...(*my phone no credit jor..T.T) YOU said YOU dont want i get hurted..so YOU dnt find me..do YOU know? YOU dnt find me..i get MORE HURT!!!
i cant accept YOU gave me the answer was like that..i cant!!! i really dont know what YOU want..if YOU dont love me..pLease!!! TELL ME..!!! i wont so hurt..
i CRY for..YOUR sudden called..
i CRY for..YOU said YOU miss me..(*not very trusted!!)
i CRY for..YOU still remember me in the NEW YEAR..
i CRY for..why YOU miss ME!!
i miss YOU..
i do really miss YOU much..
i do very LOVE YOU much..
why when i gonna to put YOU in my heart for not talking about YOU forever..
YOU will always suddenly appear in my LIFE again..!!
why?
why?
please...i do really hope that YOU will tell me YOU dont love me anymore..i dont want like a fool who always waiting for YOU everyday everytime everysecond and every 3years again and again..!!!

-MOODy-

hope..

what a boring Christmas Eve and Christmas..T.T
feel bad mood..unhappy...T.T
miss YOU suddenly..
How YOUR christmas eve and christmas?
haiz..ppl who beside YOU..not ME..T.T
so hope to celebrate christmas with YOU..
so hope!!
damn hope!!
really hope!!
very very hope!!
haiz............
once again..my CHRISTMAS is like that..
clubbing only..T.T

HATE Christmas..

more 4days..christmas is coming so0n..
hate Christmas!!
remember..u put me aeroplane..
remember..treat YOU with true love..
remember..YOU broke YOUR promise..
remember..how much i miss YOU..
remember..how unreasonable YOU leave me..
remember..how pain am i..
remember..how hurt YOU gave me..
remember..never prove it how much i love YOU..
remember..remember..remember..
always remember what YOU said..
always remember what i do for YOU..
but....
why cant YOU feel it?
Christmas day hope to c YOU..(it's impossible..T.T)
*最放不下的是你..
*最难以忘记的是你..
*最让我心动的是你..
*最让我心痛的是你..
*我的心..
*永远只住着你..
*都是你..全都是你..T.T

海派甜心..

还不想睡的我..突然想起你.."海派甜心"令我想起你..好想好想你..3年了..现在的我还在等着你..
你在哪儿? 不敢再去接受别的男生..因为害怕你有天会回来找我..好想你回到我身边..到现在我还不明白..我们因为什么而分开? 不对!不对!是你因为什么原因而放弃我了..难道我这个女生就不值得你去爱吗? 心里好难受..现在的我还是没办法放下你..真的没办法..总是嬉皮笑脸,爱说废话,无聊的我..好想大哭一场..怕别人说我太傻..不敢哭..怕别人一直叫我放弃你..不敢讲..好像对表姐说.."我真的真的放不下阿杰.." 阿姨问我你去哪儿了..不懂怎么回答..你永远是我的致命伤..说到你..总是心情不好..怎么办? 好想尝试被人爱的感觉..但害怕..因为..没有男生可以取代你..没有男生可弥补你对我的伤害..真的没有..不想再想你了..脑海总是不听话..总是爱像一个不切实际,没有可能的你..我想要我的新生活..一个从来没认识过你的新生活..可是都太迟了..不发生都发生了..你..还是走进我的生活..一个令我三年前一直痛苦到现在的生活..无法不想你,不念你..无法忘记你,放弃你..这些我都办不到..对不起我的朋友,表姐..她们总是叫我忘记你..可是我已经尽量了..我办不到..我的新生活..没有了..

你永远是我的伤痛

my friend just bought a wallet set to her bf...
v webcam...she let me c her present...
hmm...lo0k like me...
when i buy da christmas present for YOU...
i have those feeling tat same with my fren...keep smiling...=)
so blessednes..
but this feeling already dissapear from my life long time ago...
haiz...suddenly think back ur present stil beside me...
stil live in my cupboard...it's seems dont wan to leave me...
wan stay beside forever...
i take it out..c d present...c d christmas card..so MISS YOU..dono why...
你真的真的永远是我的伤痛,想忘也忘不掉...
already said wanna start a new life...dont wan broke my word...
but today...MISS YOU much..
still wanna know...
how ur life now? go0d or bad?..........=(